Never Good Enough

I have always been the person who could never do anything quite well enough.

I am as smart as my sister, but was never quite able to live up to the standards she set at school. She excelled at the things she loved and I stayed stagnant, never quite being able to improve.

My parents would never tell me to my face, but I have let them down in my life. I could have done as well (if not better) than her, but I didn’t.

Maybe I am setting the bar too high for myself. Maybe I should just give up. Accept that I am destined for nothing but mediocrity.

I am mediocre at school: I am about to lose my scholarship, I may not be able to make it to law school, I may be ruining my entire future.

I am mediocre in love: I have never been good enough for anyone.

I am mediocre at work: I work so hard and still get crappy tips, I deal with so much crap for nothing.